You mean people actually read this?!?

When I started this blog, it was a way for me to express myself, for myself. I devote so so so much of my time to my husband and kids, this was going to be my place to vent, and my place to just be me. To write about the the things that mean something to me. When I started I didn’t expect anyone to actually read it. Or even really care about what I had to say. Over the last 6 months or so since I started this I have slowly picked up followers and watching the stats I see that there is at least one visit to my blog each day, and, you know, the likes and comments on my posts (and the blog that posted my after birth story, Life After Birth, which I guess would lend to the idea the people are reading my blog, but I guess I still didn’t believe anyone was) And then today happened.

Today I was going through the blogs that I follow and catching up on some reading. When I realized that one of the blogs I follow had been given the WordPress Family Award. Being happy and excited for her (I love reading her posts and look forward to them!) I read the post. To find out that she wanted to pass the award onto me! Me! Someone reads and enjoys my blog. To say I am wowed is an understatement. I was amazed when I was approached about sharing my birth story, and I am even more amazed by the shout out, so to How to Ruin a Toddler’s Day, I thank you very much for the award! 



Part of receiving this award is to pass it along to other bloggers that you feel are deserving of it. (I don’t know of there is a special number of people I am supposed to send it on to, so I am going to send it to the 3 blogs I am enjoying right now and scream family to me.) There would be 4, but I feel it may be tacky to send it back to the person I received it from. (Just know that I seriously feel you deserved it!) 

First I would like to pass this along to Broken Condoms. I thoroughly love reading her blog. She has a very honest and real sense of humor, and doesn’t hold anything back!

Second is Mommy Loves Wine. Her blog is a new one, with only 2 posts to date, but I hope she continues on with her writing. I love  that she isn’t willing to put up with bullshit, and doesn’t buy into the fantasy that everyone has perfect children. I look forward to seeing what else she has to say!

Last, but definitely not least, is someone I know personally, who puts her family above all else. You can see the joy and pride she has for her ‘boogs’ and she wants nothing more then to live an honest and happy life with her little family. Frecklefacemom is someone I look up to, not only in the blogging world, but in my everyday life as well. 


Love, hugs and more to come later


To My Husband, On Father’s Day

To Hubs,

First off, I know you don’t typically read my blog, but I hope that when I ask you to go read my latest post, you actually do come read this. Second, I know we chose not to exchange anything for mother’s day and father’s day this year, but this isn’t a gift… this is me expressing myself on my blog, which is what I started the blog for. (So there)

Almost 4 years ago I made the decision to move halfway across the country to give our relationship a serious shot, from there things moved quick with you and I and before we knew it we were married and I was telling you that I was pregnant (and not long after, telling you two more times!) I will never forget the look of joy on your face when I told you that I took a test and it was positive, all three times I could see how happy you were to be welcoming a baby into our lives. Seeing that gave me the confidence to face pregnancy head on.

I want to thank you for standing by me through those days and days of morning sickness. When all I would do is lie in bed and all the chores fell to you, when I couldn’t stomach changing the boys diapers and you changed more then your fair share, for rubbing my back every single day so I could sleep. I also want to thank you (again) for searching everywhere for the pretzels I was craving, only to find them and bring them home for me to open the bag, eat one, and let them go stale in the cupboard. And, you know, dealing with my random tearful outbursts over the most mundane things (like the chocolate cream pie not defrosting fast enough)

I remember the day we seen each of the kids on the ultrasound and found out their genders. You were so excited to be having a little boy the first two times, and looked just as excited and yet so scared when we found out Zoey was a girl! My heart swelled watching you watch the ultrasound screen. The love I could see in your face for the little alien baby on the screen was indescribable.  

I remember seeing you hold each of our babies the first time. The joy, the love and the peace I could see. A Daddy welcoming his babies into the world. I tear up just thinking about it. I wish I had a camera to capture that moment (obviously I was far to exhausted to think of that at the time, so instead the images are forever imprinted on my mind for me to enjoy in private, which is perfectly okay with me!) 

I fall more in love with you everyday watching you our kids. The three of them are beyond lucky to have you in their lives. You teach them things that I, as a Mom, just can’t. Like how to build a good train track for their Thomas trains, how to get as dirty as possible in the sand, how to roughhouse without hurting each other. And all the things that I’m not even sure you are conscious of teaching them. You’re teaching them to be confident, self-assured, and proud. They’re watching how you treat me.  They’re watching how you never leave or enter our house without kisses and hugs.  You’re teaching them how to be a great partner.  You’re teaching them about the important treasure that is family.

You are their hero.  They watch everything that you do, learn from everything that you do, and want to do everything that you do.  You are, and will continue to be, a big player in their self-esteem. I couldn’t have picked a better person for my sons to want to be like and my daughter to want in a future husband.  

I want to thank you for supporting me as a stay at home mom and making the sacrifices necessary to make things work as a one income household. I want to thank you for understanding when I have a hard day with the kids and taking over with the kids so I can catch a breather. 

Thank you for being an amazing husband and an even better Daddy. 

Happy Father’s Day