This post is one I’ve been putting off. I haven’t written it or posted it because I am afraid of hurting feelings. I have a few close friends who read my blog and I don’t want to offend them. So to avoid doing that, I haven’t been blogging. But not blogging isn’t fair to me. I started this blog to be an outlet for me and somewhere along the way I got caught up in caring about what other people thought of my blogs content. Caring about how others would react. But not anymore.
As of right now this blog is reverting back to its original purpose. Back to being my outlet. Back to acting as something of a journal for me. A safe place for me to express myself. Because right now, I need that. More then anything. I’ve been bottling up my feelings because I feel like I have nowhere to turn.
Outside of my husband and family, I have no friends I can talk to. My friends here aren’t used to having me around day to day and I feel like I can’t relate/open up to them and my friends out east… Well… I’m not there for the day to day anymore and I noticed it was taking longer and longer to get replies to my messages so I guess I’ve kind of stopped trying as hard.
I’m going to start blogging more. About the things that matter to me.
And as a stay at home mom to 4 babies under 4 and a wife to an ex military member coping with a permanent injury it might not be that interesting.
Love, hugs and more to come later