Fake it ’til you make it

The last month or so has sucked. Seriously, seriously sucked. A lot of it is personal and financial stuff that I am not going to get into here, partly because it’s personal and partly because if my husband found out I was posting our personal financial stuff on the internet I am pretty sure he would kill me. Some of it is me. And my emotions being all effed up and unexplainable. I don’t even know why I am trying to blog at this point, any of the other posts I have tried to write have ended up deleted because they made no sense after I was done typing. That’s where I am. Nothing makes sense.

So I am going to focus on finding the positives and try to leave the negatives out of this post. I am working on a new motto that if I focus on the good things in life, the bad things will become less important. I will fake being happy and on top of things until I am. I will overcome. So here we go, onto the great things!

First, Alex is totally toilet trained now. He has no accidents, although he is still wearing a diaper to bed. I am proud of him. He’s proud of him. And I have 1/3 less diapers to change!

Nick is starting to say a few more words then he was a month ago, although they aren’t very clear. We have also taught him a couple signs so there is less frustration from him when he is having trouble communicating. And  he cut one of his eye teeth. Which only leaves him with 7 more teeth that he needs to deal with!

Zoey is starting to pull herself up. Which excites the boys to no end. It’s awesome. She also cut two more teeth. So now she has four. Not that we are getting a break from teething anytime soon. Numbers 5, 6, 7, and 8 are starting to swell up and push on the gums now!

This pregnancy is starting to get a little better too, now that I am eating and gaining weight again. (I had really bad heartburn and reflux which was making eating impossible and resulting in a pretty serious weight loss, but my Dr gave me a prescription and things are on the mend now!)

Hubs and I have made some huge life choices over the last couple weeks. Some that have left me feeling relieved and some that have left me reeling, trying to find solid ground again. My anxieties have flared up huge, and I am left feeling overwhelmed and unable to explain myself more often then not. I can feel myself being easily angered and frustrated by most people and pulling away. Thankfully this doesn’t extend to the kids. They seem to get all my patience, even patience I didn’t know I had. These kids have the ability to make me smile, no matter what is happening around me. I am so thankful that I was blessed with such amazing children. And on that note, here are some things that made me smile the last few days:


I am really grateful for the person who makes these shirts and sends them to me from Texas. Seriously, look up Wonderful You on Facebook. She is AMAZING!


We put them to bed in their own beds. And yet, somehow, I find them like this about half the time! So sweet. I adore the brotherly love.





Ignoring the laundry that my kids took out of the basket and threw all over the place, Zoey has a new fascination with putting buckets, bowls, clothes… anything really, on her head. She LOVES wearing headbands!!



These two pictures of the boys are pretty self explanatory. How do you not smile?




ImageImage I look huge, I know. But my Dr assures me there is only one in there!


Love, hugs and more to come later!

4 thoughts on “Fake it ’til you make it

  1. Rest assured that you are not the only one with these problems. People aren’t talking about it, but I’m pretty sure that everyone but Bill Gates is going through horrible financial problems (which lead to all kinds of other problems). Everything is so f’d up right now, I don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow, let alone next year. Our generation is screwed, but know this– we are all screwed together. That’s a good thing for this reason– If we’re all screwed together, then everything else will have to eventually adjust to the level of screwage we are facing. Chin up, Momma.

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